Can't write what you don't know

I have been working hard on a book that I have had in mind for a while. I was excited to get it done in time for my cousin's wedding so my other cousin could read it...then I hit a block. All three parts are on my wall planned out perfectly. I know exactly what happens to Kaylee in book 1, the exact transfers that take place during DaKota's mission in book 2 and I know Kaiden's birthday and why she is such a miracle baby. I know how its all going, but still couldn't get it on paper. It took me about a week to finally realize why I can't write it. Its not a negative thing...its just that you can't write what you don't know. Kaylee and Kota fall in love in book 1 and more so by letter in book 2. I don't know what that means. I don't know what love it. I can see it in other people but I can't describe that in words. I love my family but that's not the same love Kaylee and DaKota have. Its not a bad thing, I just have to wait to write this one. The same goes for the other one I've been working on too. I can't write what I don't know. It's actually a good thing because I know I'm a good writer, but a good writer knows when not to make something up. You can't make up love. I know what I would like it to be. I've seen enough fairy tales. Part of it though is also the fact that to me its not the next step. Its not my next thing on the check list to check off. If I have to wait until I'm 28 (no I'm NOT mentioning 30 yet) to fall in love for real then I'll wait for it. Yes, I do believe that there are some LDS girls and guys who have gotten married because that's what is next. I won't do that. If I offend I do apologize, but I am allowed to have my opinion. Too many people are not getting married for real love, its the idea of being in love and doing what's next. I can't write about that. I can't write about finding someone who you like to hang out with and how easy it is to say "I love you"-I did it. But that's not what I want for Kaylee and DaKota. They aren't like that. They fall in love. They have a fairytale. The idea of a fairytale is not dead. Getting married is one of the things that are up next, but I'm not going to marry the first guy who asks so I can say "Checked that off--on to kids." That's not love to me. That's not happiness to me. I could very easily write Kaylee's feelings to be how mine were with Tony. Kaylee would also end up being extremely miserable because she never was really in love. I said "I love you" to Tony and he said it back. It felt good to say it to someone and to have someone say it back. But they were just words. When I can say in my head while I am saying those words out loud "I wish he was prince charming" or "how am I going to see my family once we're married" then its not love at all. You always here the stories of people who had arranged marriages and how after a few years they fell in love. I'm not cool with that. It worked for them but it won't for me. I'm a huge romantic. If I get married its because I can't live without him. I love my mom's reaction every time my dad goes out of town-upset. She can't live without him. I really don't like when men go out of town and the wife is like "finally now I can do this and that" or "I'm going out of town with my girlfriends because I need sometime away from my husband"--oh my depressing!! I might be expecting too much and maybe that's why it hasn't happened...I am perfectly fine with that. This isn't on my To Do list. It's not on Kaylee and DaKota's either. I know exactly how the book will go. I know how each part with come to life. The moment I know what love feels like is the moment Kaylee and DaKota will know. I'm not faking this in real life or in my character's lives. Its real in both worlds and I think I want to write what I know.